*An open letter to Shirley May Obleno Labitigan

Depression, Deppressing, Deppressed

I dont want to catch attention but maybe I will.

I can’t pretend that there is nothing wrong with me, but there is.
Truly I am depressed, It’s about what is happening to me and what is going on. I wanted to move on, but I can’t because I love her so much that I felt puking not even to think about her. I am doing the best that I can, not to be affected in work but partially it does.

Focus that’s what I need, to tell you honestly I don’t need another person to have a relationship with other than her. I did what I did because I am just being honest on what I felt when we had a conversation, having said that it doesn’t mean that I despise her, I just want to have a time for myself and also it hurts whenever she introduces me that I was her EX.

As of now my focus is work and to have more work, it doesn’t mean to be busy and forget her but to be stable enough to have her as my wife, because I accept whoever and what she is.

Love for me is never a feeling but a commitment or a relationship. I fell on cracks but somehow I wanted to be helped by her, because it will be a lifetime relationship and to also feel that she will be around when I fall and i will be there to when she also does.

On the wrong doings that I did, I am sorry for having her felt that way, I never meant to and am really sorry, and I am still praying that second chance will come. I just dont know how to start and how to do it right. I also realize that she might just wanted to have more or enough time with me and enough for her family.

I am a hopeless romantic. But hon I am sorry. Do I not deserve a second chance?

**If love is not enough to move mountains,Then I will believe that it’s the end of the world **